Choose a new reality, say NO to the old paradigm and YES to highest potential:

No more unsatisfactory one-night stands or toxic or mediocre relationships

No more feeling guilty for choosing yourself and honoring all aspects of yourself including your boundaries.

No more working tirelessly for something you don’t believe in.

Instead, I Desire for You:

Guilt and shame-free pleasure and wealth.

An outrageous, fulfilling relationship.

To wake up making love to yourself, ready for the world with an open heart and turned-on yoni & lingam.

To do what you love, get paid for it, and celebrate your existence.

To love every aspect of your life—physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually.

To be confident in your body, appearance, speech, choices, and all areas of life.

I invite you to turn the Drama into Dharma, a life based on universal values where we are aware that our actions impact the future, where all is seen as sacred and meant to enrich your highest truth and discover unconditional love as your very self.

The Nectar of You is my dedication, culmination, and celebration of my 20-year spiritual journey of healing the core wound of the wrong notion of separation and the return to Sacred Union within and without. I understood that as long as I am rejecting any aspect of this human existence, I am rejecting God/Goddess and not embracing the gift of totality.

All I ever wanted was the Truth. All I ever wanted was Freedom. For a long time, I thought to be free was to be free from the world, from relationships, from money, from fame, from power. I judged myself and others for wanting sex, money, material success, and power. I believed these things were unspiritual. When it came to relationships and intimacy, I was deeply insecure, jealous, and intimidated.

Freedom is not the destiny. It is an already accomplished fact. It is your Sāra - your essence. You are born free. You are the Nectar of Life. You are that which gives existence to all that is here. You are the elixir of all that is. Without you, nothing exists. All stories ever created, including the heart-wrenching love and war stories, are perpetual and continue for as long as we take ourselves to be different and separated from one another.

Life is your Sacred Mirror. Your partner is your Sacred Mirror. You get to choose to make this mirror your greatest teacher, to hold your broken heart, heal your genitals, reclaim your power, and the wealth you are. You are what you want to be: whole and complete and the Source of Love. Nothing exists outside of you. Once you discover that fact, the suffering will end, and true happiness, joy, and Sacred Love will be yours.

Before I knew what I was, I made choices based on my insecure and fearful being, which led to more suffering, culminating in divorce. That divorce was the most painful thing I ever experienced, but the truth is, it only revealed the pain that was always present, dormant, hidden in the unconscious. The core wound of the idea of separation created all suffering, I tried to hold on to this relationship no matter the cost, I would fight for it with my life. He left and my greatest fear of being rejected and abandoned has now a reason to express itself. I wanted to take my life but I knew that if I would do that, I would have to face the pain in my next life.

So I decided to embrace this part of me that did not feel worthy of love. It was my little girl, she felt unlovable and she was finally acknowledging her helplessness. The vulnerability I experienced brought me to my knees and I was at the mercy of God/Goddess. I had to ask for help and that was so scary. How could anyone ever love me if they see me this broken? But the world opened up to me even more. My allies came to my support. 

I left Bali and went to India to immerse myself completely in the Vedic Teachings, going to the temple 3 times a day crying tears that filled the eternal ocean of sadness. It felt eternal but I knew this will change. The songs, the prayers, the rituals, the deep heart sharings, the community all of it helped me to finally cross the ocean of grief and uncover the ever abiding ocean of infinite unconditional love. 

My divorce became one of the greatest blessings of my life. I turned my pain into prayers, learned to ritualize my life, and convert the Beast into Sacred Beauty. I became my best friend, my partner in success. I married myself and vowed to be there for myself always, never to abandon myself again. Only I can make that vow as I can actually keep this promise because I can never leave my side.

Every other person in your life will depart. That is the nature of this world. It comes and goes. People come and go.

This recognition will offer you the ability to love freely and give the people you love the freedom to be who and what they are.

In order to grow, we need space, time, a sanctuary, people with the same values, nourishment, and guidance. A readiness and a willingness.